Fear & Faith

“If your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough.”
– Ellen Johnson Sirleaf

Starting a (legit) blog/website scares the crap out of me.

It scares me so much I’m actually afraid to examine why it scares me. (More on that later).

I’ve tried this before. I have this habit of going hard for an idea/creation and then fading out like a bad pop song. (hence my random tumblr and all the assorted craft and sewing projects halfway finished)

Yet here I am doing it again and publishing it in a larger scale (there is money involved this time!)

Am I a masochist?

Mildly delusional?

Do I have an inflated sense of self-importance?

Maybe a little bit of all three? God, I hope not.

The thing is, the more life experience I have, the more I have to say. And when I keep it in, it rages so intensely to get out that it can actually make me sick.
When I feel passionately about an experience or an issue, and I don’t write about it, it swims in my head while I’m awake and asleep. It shuffles through my bloodstream and bones bumping against my insides.  It refuses to be quieted until I have talked about it, written about it or so thoroughly physically exhausted myself that I have no strength left to process. (And, lets be honest, I don’t work out so talking and writing are my best options).

Thus, here is my newest attempt.

I am living in faith that these passions were put in me for a reason and I am meant to do something about them. I believe that “doing something,” in this season of life, means public expression in a large venue, ie; internet blog.

In this blog, you will find themes centered around issues of faith and it’s application from the every day to the larger life picture. You will read a lot about my life as a therapist for urban adolescents. You will read about my process and opinions on issues such as social justice and race. You will get a peek into how I work through my own grief and emotional health in my personal life. I will probably be a little more vulnerable than I’d like, but I am trusting that this will have lasting ramifications for those who come across it.

I will not, and do not, claim to be anyone’s expert or authority.

I welcome your feedback and questions, should you have any. Let’s see where this journey takes us, shall we?